Fake it till' you become it

I think I need a confidence boost in actually doing things that I think that could help with my future be better for me. I know that when I'm older, I want to become a photographer but I'm always hesitating to do things. I'll think it through and I'll wonder if it is a good idea, if people will judge, will I actually become the thing I see myself in, will it happen. Basically I would do a lot of metacognition. Metacognition means to be thinking about you thinking. Over the years I've noticed that I'm the type of person who wants to do everything while I have the opportunity but most times it wouldn't happen because I think to much about the aftermath the could happen with one decision. To fake it until I make it I just need to start believing in myself that I can do it if I just put my mind into it and forget the negative things that could happen but notice in it that things can happen unexpectedly.

Where I'm From Poem

Im from humongous amounts of family care
Baby angel blankets and my own lullaby
Chipped white walls and butterflies, flowered tinkered room
My twin sister is part of where I'm from

I'm from "Girl you better watch your attitude!"
And "Your my baby's and there's nothing you can do about it. I love you!"
Checking my place and creating new joyful and some irritating moments everyday
Family is where I'm from

I'm from continuous changes
From Belieber to Directioners
From girly and then tomboyish to finally in between
From purple to red, to pink and yellow
And now to they color of the sky and rainbows too

I'm from Denny's to IHOP and sometimes breakfast for dinner
I'm from "What'd you want to eat today?" To " I'll just cook something that comes to mind."
Hamburger Helper Lagsana and Tacos
Baked treats to just Milk Chocolate

I'm from Christianity but exposed to publication
I can do my own thing in life but don't forget
Tradition is always the admission

Election Reflection

To me I believe that the election from 2016 in general was stupid and unreal. From both side candidates, Hilary Clinton and Donald Trump, they're choices of things that they wanted to change when they go into office was stupid. But I believe that Clinton was a lot more smarter and non-brutal about topics that would cause chaos throughout the country then Trump was. To, based off from the things I'm hearing and reading about him, he's a very risky man to be in office because 1, he wants to stop immigration in general because of what people "believe" that partially foreign people who come into  America is one solution that causes problems in this country and 2, cause considering on how he reacts with past other races and women you could easily tell that I still could or is acting in this way. When I found out that Trump would be president I was so scared for the people who would be trying to come into America, immigrants who came here and never passed the citizen test, and for the youth and their future. If immigrants are sent back to where they originated from then depending from where they came from some can be killed for leaving in their country. Others would be put back into their stressful lives that they wanted to run away from to have a better life. The youths future wouldn't be able to have free college and some wouldn't even be there to see the future because either they were immigrants or they don't have enough money for Trump's future plans. A lot of people won't be ready for what Trump has under his sleeve. In the present to the future I wouldn't like to get involved into politics because from what I've seen in the past up until now it's stressful and almost confusing because every time you turn away someone dies and nothing happens or government starts to to make up ideas on how to fix problems while they don't see how the citizens are trying to show them it won't be working or helpful enough for a better change. For the next election I believe that I will be legally able to vote and even to then I'm not all that excited but cause you'll never know who wants to run then. They can either be worse then what we're dealing with or better. Depending on who's going to run and what they want to do and fix during office then I might change my input on how I feel about politics and government but, it'll take some time to getting used to it.

Throwback Thursday🤗👶🏽

I remember when I was younger, whenever I got ready for school my dad would have me stand up on his and my mom's bed and he would help me get dressed while I would watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse on Disney Channel. It was the best thing that made me happy when I woke up because since we did that everyday we would sing the theme song out loud together and laugh together when we tried to make the sound Goofy does. Now since I'm older I'll see all these new kid shows that are on and I wouldn't see any that I grow up watching like Electric Company, Marth Speaks, Word Girl, etc. Thery're all discontinued which makes me sad but things get older over time and people create things that has a knew interest for the next generation to come.

Spreading Kindess

     The most thoughtful I did over break was get my sister two presents. I know it's not much but I have never given her a gift for any type of celebration before. The first present I got her was 3 months before Christmas and it was a bracelet of a brand I have that tells what the definition of being a sister in an intelligent way with a flower charm that went along with the message. The second gift I got her came with the school because the week before we got on break our school was doing a fundraiser called Candy Grams. You would by 1 candy for a $1 and 6 for $5. With the candy can you could right a letter to that person and they would receive it the last day before break. I got her one while I didn't receive any. By her reaction with both gifts I could tell she loved them and was very surprised that I'd think to get anyone anything. At the end she still got me a funny card and $15, which made me happy too.

My Intention For The Next Year

Next year, I want to be different by changing the way how I respond to things I don't like and my attitude. I believe I should do this for the next year because for a LONG time I have said things I shouldn't say towards people who are related to me when Im angry or don't agree to something. Doing this for a long makes individuals kind of drift away from you because they'll really didnt want to deal with an attitude and being in fear if I'd just out of nowhere lash out on them. I think changing my attitude will help alot more in my life because it can cause better health for me and others. In 2017, I WILL answer people with a more positive thought after thinking twice before Ive said anything to prevent an argument.